First

I don't think I have felt such real fear and stress before.

I can't sleep. And, I almost cried today.

I can't imagine how I would cope if not for her. Silver lining.

Edge

Strangely cramped by inaction and feeling symptoms of withdrawal from intensity, even if this is just a brief interlude.

Feeling tense and on edge, for reasons I can't fathom.

What is happening to me? It is still all good, I suppose. I am anxious. And, happy.

Reminder

to self, that this is just a self-inflicted passing struggle, and the big things in life are still rosy and matter more. That I will look back and smile. For a long time. That I always have a choice.

So, how do I enjoy this and get the best out of it? For it will not last forever.

Baptism

My first week. Everyone in the room is at least as smart as I am. That used to be my edge.

They are all willing and able to work much harder than I am. At least, as of now.

Paralysis Friday.

The work is exciting. The potential impact deeply satisfying. Both to me and the client. Perhaps more to me. That is how I must look at this.

Six months down the road, let us hope I look at this post. And, smile.

Tickets

The travel books show you all the trips you could take. You would only buy the tickets for the one you want to go on.

Blue

Bukit Timah Blue. The beautiful hue of the twilight sky when you pass Sixth Avenue on your bicycle, 640 am or thereabouts.

Diversification

The rice bowl and the rocket?