First

I don't think I have felt such real fear and stress before.

I can't sleep. And, I almost cried today.

I can't imagine how I would cope if not for her. Silver lining.

Edge

Strangely cramped by inaction and feeling symptoms of withdrawal from intensity, even if this is just a brief interlude.

Feeling tense and on edge, for reasons I can't fathom.

What is happening to me? It is still all good, I suppose. I am anxious. And, happy.