Por que

1. To do something that makes me uncomfortable and afraid, not bored
2. To learn how they do it
3. To soak from remarkable people
4. To move to that area of work
5. To find a way to that part of the world
6. To learn about, improve and find the confidence to back myself

It is happening.

It is a roller-coaster - fun as long as I don't fall off.

The standard cliche - what does not kill you, makes you stronger. So true.

Tough

It is so tough to do something you don't know how to do.

Learning is always so difficult. Therefore, also fun. Especially in retrospect.

I hope I learn.

Dizzy

In a call with 2 ex-Shell colleagues, putting together a proposal for another ex-Shell colleague.

Where am I?

Crybaby

Over the weekend, I properly broke down. Out of the blue. Cried wet into her shoulders.

The best part was that I felt so good afterwards. The bester part was having her shoulders to cry on.

Still on track.

Motive

The most enjoyable kind of work is that which you are not asked to do, but do anyway.

See-saw

It is feel-good time again.

Every day that I spend here, I realise how passionate and competent I would have to be to pursue something that I think is my nirvana.

Lesson: I am not passionate enough about anything. And, I am still generally afraid.

But, as I said, feel-good time again. Which means, I am learning.

Stumble

I feel beaten and am overflowing with self-doubt.

Not easy, this.